“We need a slow-paced lifestyle, which I have recently adopted in my life"

My journey from the abyss… towards the compass

Since I was eighteen years old, I found myself caught up in a whirlwind of rapid life between work, study, and household responsibilities. My lifestyle and time seemed to rush by, leaving no room for enjoyment, even in the simplest of details. It was all about daily duties that had to be completed on time.

Here is where it all began, the journey of awareness to moments, or as psychology calls it, mindfulness, where time stops… moments of silence, fear, confusion, completely soundless. Yes, it was the year 2020, specifically on the thirteenth of March, when I lost my dream job, which I had worked so hard to obtain and prove my worth. A call came from the other end, my direct manager, terminating my services due to the current circumstances. I wasn’t convinced of the reason, but he insisted that there was no other explanation. My journey began to take its course towards the abyss, complete shutdowns in every country around the world. How long will this last? We don’t know, a completely empty future. I felt alone in my room, not knowing my fate in the days to come, with no source of hope left. I possessed it, completely lost it, just as I lost myself.

Three weeks or more passed, and I resisted the feeling. I couldn’t even brush my teeth or leave my bed. I simply opened my eyes and stared at the sky to make sure that we were here. As time passed, my condition required immediate medical attention. After examinations and diagnosis, I was informed that I was suffering from severe depression. Thus, the journey of medical and behavioral treatment began, with ups and downs, and recovery, relapse, and recovery again. Two years have passed since the outbreak of the Corona pandemic, and I was still in the recovery and psychological treatment phase. I discovered that what happened was a buildup that I needed to accept and live with in order to gradually address it. I realized that depression was my constant companion, visiting me on some days and leaving on others, until now, when I am more aware of dealing with it in effective ways that I learned through my journey towards healing.

From the womb of suffering, the best results began to appear day after day. I asked myself, will I be okay, and how can I develop that to achieve the best results in my daily life? When I realized that as a woman, I needed to be present internally with myself and understand mood swings and general fluctuations throughout the day, I found the best ways that suited me to achieve better mental health quality. Slow life, literally as I say, a slower life balanced with a better feeling and less tension, enjoyable self-communication, discovering the best of who I am, what I want, where I am, and when I start.

The compass was lost, and I called it… I’ll tell you more later.